Essentially...

More and more I am feeling as life is this never ending cycle of perpetual bullshit. You go to work, go to school, do everything else your supposed to do, and more, and somehow it's still not good enough. 

More and more I feel as if I want to become this huge national threat, but the only was that seems possibly these days is to strap a bomb to my chest and scream BOMB!, possibly in an airplane or a large building, preferably in New York City. 

More and more I feel as if no-one takes the time to listen to what I am saying. No, I DO NOT want to fight with you, I am just making a factual statement. People don't seem to understand that I really just do not care. I am not trying to fight with you or argue about this or that, I am simply telling you what I think or how I feel about something. FACT: Customer comes in to my work establishment asks me if the movies on-sale apply to customers without an account, of-course I said yes and he comes back to further belittle me by asking me the same god damn question. Were you expecting a discount of some sort if you came off as insane? Because those usually only apply to the "senior Citizens."

This perpetual cycle of bullshit just needs to end so I can finally breathe.