Essentially...

More and more I am feeling as life is this never ending cycle of perpetual bullshit. You go to work, go to school, do everything else your supposed to do, and more, and somehow it's still not good enough. 

More and more I feel as if I want to become this huge national threat, but the only was that seems possibly these days is to strap a bomb to my chest and scream BOMB!, possibly in an airplane or a large building, preferably in New York City. 

More and more I feel as if no-one takes the time to listen to what I am saying. No, I DO NOT want to fight with you, I am just making a factual statement. People don't seem to understand that I really just do not care. I am not trying to fight with you or argue about this or that, I am simply telling you what I think or how I feel about something. FACT: Customer comes in to my work establishment asks me if the movies on-sale apply to customers without an account, of-course I said yes and he comes back to further belittle me by asking me the same god damn question. Were you expecting a discount of some sort if you came off as insane? Because those usually only apply to the "senior Citizens."

This perpetual cycle of bullshit just needs to end so I can finally breathe. 

♥

As of lately I have been feeling this pit in the link which connects my mind and heart. This missing link is what has been affecting my sleep and way of life. I have realized that sitting back and just being a student in this time is okay and a step on the ladder but there is more for me to do out in the world.

I no longer want to sit back and watch this world go by me. Getting out and making a statement is what I feel is missing, I want the feeling of having to be neutralized, criticized and prophesied. Whether it be through my words, my lyrics, melodies, or photographs. The feeling that people are listening and reacting to what I have to say. This ether of a movement in which our youth today lacks is what I want to reinforce. Pushing the boundaries of every political action taken. I want to push it one step further. The only silence we shall here are from the Monks. 

Our opposition to the government seems to go unnoticed and unheard of at times. The impact of our youth is little to none. " Come together and join the movement, make a stand for human rights." Our knowledge of what strikes where or who is killed by what is unknowing and paring. Nixon once said " When someone comes and participates in a political rally he or she is doing something that is a personal sacrifice and even a risk." Nixon's words of a movement were of fear of those preaching the words life, love, and freedom, opposed to his words of death and destruction. As a collective I believe we can make any mass political leader feel fear, what did our activists do in the 60's and 70's? Everything we are not in Layman's Terms. 

San Fransico's breeding grounds for activists is dwindling. The voice gone and so is the movement. What lacks from our people today is passion. Passion of finding someone with shared opinions or motives. 

In this movement, I am evolving in every aspect of my life. The world is changing as well as my life. I've found someone who makes me feel every emotion. Completes my voice and makes me feel as if nothing I say or do is wrong. Always having this dream of meeting an artist and having someone who's sense is as big as mine." All you need is Love...Love is all you need." John Lennon told our youth that the 60's is just a glimpse of what can happen and what we need. Love, Peace, and Music. I believe these three things should be applied to our everyday lives. Our search for what is right is in finding love. If we all felt this way our society today would change. 

This isn't an invention of my mind, it's an invention of the minds before us.
We need to be aware of inspiring and making people become aware. We know we didn't do our job right when people don't stand up and leave. Make a stir. And do it with a smile.